Almost "goodbye" time for So.Cal

They say Los Angeles is a place where dreams are made or broken; well I've lived here long enough to experience both sides of the spectrum. However, my days here in LA and in southern california are now numberd. 23 days to be exact, as I depart for college august 16th up near sacramento (northen cali). Yes, being in an unfamiliar place will be a huge reality check, but perhaps being the person that I am, it's the best move for me. See, being here in LA in alot of ways makes me wanna run from it until I learn enough for me to come back. I'm kinda tired of everyone trying to be "somebody" and the only way they know how to do it is by trying to be like everyone else. It doesn't make sense, nor is it attractive to see these girls that only care about wtf they look like in the mirror. I mean who doesn't love a bomb chick, but a dude like me at this point in his mindset needs something more, and LA offers few of that.

It's so much fun here and so much shit to do, especially to get in trouble lol, but damn even that can be fun when your in LA. Man I don't really know of any shopping areas out in northern cali either and if your anyone who knows me, you know I'll die without being able to shop lol. But anyways, I'll survive and hopefully I'll meet some chill people who I can be my full self around, instead of holding it back like I tend to do here in LA. People either know my as the dude who knows how to dress, the smart dude, the funny dude, the nice guy, the asshole, the creative dude, etcs. but few people know me as a sum of all those things. Lol, here in LA, it's like I always seem to find someone (a girl especiallu) that understood me for everything I am, but sooner or later I would be disappointed and turned-off by realizing that it wasn't what I felt it to be. Shit having a bunch of girls that mean nothing to you only makes them good for one thing (we all know what that is) and that's basically what I'm dealing with right now, so if I just packed up and moved for college this very second I can't honestly say I would miss any of them...sorry =/

Excuse me for being so blunt, but hey this is MY blog! But yeah, of course while I know alot of people here at home, I'll never know everyone so I guess perhaps you could argue that maybe I'm just overlooking or yet to meet that person who understands me...but shit then we could always argue that because we'll never know everyone in the world lol. I'm just saying we can all agree that most people here in LA are the same. Guys for the most part are the usual "I just wanna fuck" guys, and I won't lie sometimes that's all I wanna do too if your a girl I don't respect lol. Then there are the ladies here who are the typical 20 hours in the mirror and say they want one type of dude but end up being with the type of dude they said they would never get back with lol; In other words, just simply confused. Yes, people like this exist everywhere, I am aware of that, but it's not as accepted and expected as it is here I'm sure. That is the problem.

Yeah, I'll miss LA in all its flaws and its glory. Sacramento here I come, but more importantly college and LIFE here I come. It's time to start living and focusing on how I'm gonna polish myself as a person and start the journey of getting this money and leaving a mark on this world somehow. I have a plan, and just because YOU don't understand it, don't knock it! Respect what I do or stay behind your gated fences and ignore it, please. This is not me being cocky, I'm way too reserved for that, but this is how I get when I think about all the opportunity out there for a person to seize. Just know that all of you, rather I like you or not have had an impact on the person that I am, and as I leave LA if we never talk again for some reason just remember me for who I am and not for everything I wasn't. What I am not is not meant for me to be, therefore I will never become it. Remember that, bleed that.

This is my home, Los Angeles, where everyone wants to be. I would never forget it even if I wanted to. Thanks for everything, I promise to return. Now shut the fuck up and let me enjoy
these last few weeks....