Damn it's been a while foos =)! As indicated by the title though, I'm reloaded. Yes a blog is a place for venting, but ironically enough I took a break from this shit so that I could be intuned with reality a little more intuitively. Yeah yeah yeah, but anyways I'm feeling pretty good right now. Decided UC Davis is gonna be my place of higher education for the next two years until i transfer to somewhere like USC or possibly still NYU to progress in my major (journalism). I'll just use Davis since I don't really wanna go there all four years lol...hey, its cheaper that way too!
Yeah, I'm never really an ecstatic person but I'm about as happy as it gets right now. Girls, even that shit is balanced. A few are on my ignore list which is better for all people involved, some are too tangled in the falsehoods of their realtionships with boyfriends, but then I met a few new cool chicks since the time of my last post. Beauty and brains, but just friends....Cheyenne for example. Sometimes all you need is just another buddy!
My closet looks UBER lame right now for some reason, it needs to be refreshed. Let's go shopping =). However, prom is approaching so I guess I should be saving and shit right? Ha! Yep, I'm going with Kyla...finally decided on the date. Colors? Not quite yet, should be decided tomorrow.
Anyways, if your reading this just know I'm rejuvenated and that only makes my imagination spark...so I guess I should prepare for a soon replica. Well, everybody copies everbody anyways right? Hmm...so besides these random insights, I guess that's pretty much it. Back to blogging it is!
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Sunday, April 13, 2008
JSA Spring State (Nutshell)
JSA is officially over...how sad =/
I just got back home from my JSA Spring State convention at the LAX Marriot about an hour ago. Since I'm a senior, this will be my last JSA event and I regret that I didn't join earlier. FUCK! But yeah, the short time that I was involved I still managed to get alot of things out of it. For one thing, just seeing that there are other people like me out there, those that want to fight against apathy and pursue higher understandings but also just loving to plain out have fun at the same time! I mean like seriously, who loves a straight up nerd? Who loves a straight up stupid and worthless party animal that only seeks to have fun? Nobody wants ( or atleast they shouldn't) to be any one of these types of people,and that's why I try to have as much balance as possible and I am delighted to know there are atleast 600 other people like that as I learned from being a part of this organization. I'm really way more of a shy person than I may typically seem to be, so JSA was also a big push for my social development. I always found if awkward and uncomfortable to approah people that I didn't know or have them approach me and spark conversation...and while JSA hasn't totally killed that cancer, It has done a big job in the improvement aspect. I just wish I would have campaigned for a position so that I would have been more popular haha. Also, my confidence has been on a rollercoaster since my recruitment into the program. Sometimes I would speak at the conventions and totally stumble and feel like an idiot in the face of these well versed and articulate people, but then there were times...like this weekend where I would just speak from the heart and show genuine regard to what I was saying, which would obviously do the opposite and boost my confidence. I now learn that I should give myself more credit for the shit I'm capable of doing LOL, JSA has been instrumental and showing me that I have gifts, but it is also a blueprint as I progress forward into life while still trying to iron out the wrinkles in my character. But all in all, this weekend was pretty fun, which was not overturned by the few bad things that occured which I will refuse to discuss at this time. But bad shit will happen regardless, so I guess it's not worth harping on. Well, just a few more months until high school in general is complete, and by JSA ending today...the character-shaping program I have grown to like so much, it's only a step further into my still quite blurry future. Damn, life sure does fly...
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Saturday, April 5, 2008
Prom!
May 30th...only a couple of weeks away man! But damn, I still don't know who I'm taking =/. I've always imagined having the hottest date and having everybody look at us when we walk in LOL, but it's not even about that. I mean hell yeah I still want someone I find attractive, but it's more important that I take someone that I could have fun with. I had a person in mind, but she's too wrapped up in her boyfriend's soap opera...she knows who she is LOL. Not too happy about that situation, but who knows, maybe it will work out. As far as other chicks, I know alot of girls that would look incredible with me, and that would definately get me the "drop dead gorgeous date" award lmao, but most of them I can already tell will be totally "dull" as far as fun goes. So yeah, I'm in a bit of a dillemma. I dont know what colors I'm wearing, although I'm leaning towards a faint yellow and a gray as the complimetning color...I wonder who gave me that idea lol. I have the style I want in my head, so I guess that's a plus. Thinking about a suit, with a cardigan sweater over the shirt to set it off and add that extra flavor. Fucking marvin wants a similar style, but it won't be the same or the same color so it's okay. Well, prom is approaching and I need to make some decisions...I only hope my perfect date opens her eyes and acts upon what she really wants to do, which is be with me that night. Jut hope the mind hasn't changed...
Shaking My Head...
Well, besides the fact that I didn't get into any of the colleges I wanted to attend, as I look at my life in it's current condition, it's hard to find anything that is going well. High school at this point seems secondary and grades seem less important, girls are still impossible, and my circle of true friends can hardly form a circle, I have alot of "associates" however. LOL...I have no choice but to find humor in this though. Nope, not a moment to feel sorry for Isaiah or be totally "emo" LOL, but it is rather interesting to think about. A friend once told me "If I was you, damn I would have wayyy more confidence. I would be the shit, but better yet, I would know it!" LOL, I can't think of another time where something someone said made me think that much. It makes sense, I supposedly have alot of "gifts" that people would kill for, but I still don't see myself as all that important...and maybe I should. I'll never be conceited and shit but I could have alot more confidence in myself I guess. Maybe then, I wouldn't always have to worry about if people are being real or if I'm just being taken advantage of. I don't know, but once I leave Los Angeles for college maybe I could truly finish findng myself. I just know I'm tired of all the drama that gets brought to me LOL. I'm done listening...