JSA Spring State (Nutshell)

JSA is officially over...how sad =/

I just got back home from my JSA Spring State convention at the LAX Marriot about an hour ago. Since I'm a senior, this will be my last JSA event and I regret that I didn't join earlier. FUCK! But yeah, the short time that I was involved I still managed to get alot of things out of it. For one thing, just seeing that there are other people like me out there, those that want to fight against apathy and pursue higher understandings but also just loving to plain out have fun at the same time! I mean like seriously, who loves a straight up nerd? Who loves a straight up stupid and worthless party animal that only seeks to have fun? Nobody wants ( or atleast they shouldn't) to be any one of these types of people,and that's why I try to have as much balance as possible and I am delighted to know there are atleast 600 other people like that as I learned from being a part of this organization. I'm really way more of a shy person than I may typically seem to be, so JSA was also a big push for my social development. I always found if awkward and uncomfortable to approah people that I didn't know or have them approach me and spark conversation...and while JSA hasn't totally killed that cancer, It has done a big job in the improvement aspect. I just wish I would have campaigned for a position so that I would have been more popular haha. Also, my confidence has been on a rollercoaster since my recruitment into the program. Sometimes I would speak at the conventions and totally stumble and feel like an idiot in the face of these well versed and articulate people, but then there were times...like this weekend where I would just speak from the heart and show genuine regard to what I was saying, which would obviously do the opposite and boost my confidence. I now learn that I should give myself more credit for the shit I'm capable of doing LOL, JSA has been instrumental and showing me that I have gifts, but it is also a blueprint as I progress forward into life while still trying to iron out the wrinkles in my character. But all in all, this weekend was pretty fun, which was not overturned by the few bad things that occured which I will refuse to discuss at this time. But bad shit will happen regardless, so I guess it's not worth harping on. Well, just a few more months until high school in general is complete, and by JSA ending today...the character-shaping program I have grown to like so much, it's only a step further into my still quite blurry future. Damn, life sure does fly...